It's 2013 already.
Bet it's gonna be a pretty tough year for me, at least the first few months of it.
Firstly, i've made up my mind to not continue my contract here in Batam and might be going back to Jakarta for good.
It's been pretty tough months for me in the studio, the project that i'm working on is as chaos as hell if i must say. I never thought that i'm a quitter but hell, turns out i am. I've been whining about this like every minutes and every seconds, i guess Uku is getting tired hearing it. Luckily, i have a very patient bf as he always there to support every decision i've made and every path i chose.
Jadi, semalem waktu lagi acara barbeque tahun baru gw tiba-tiba ngerasa pengen menyendiri dan diem tanpa sebab. Feels like i just didn't belong there. And that hollow kinda feeling is still there now as i write this things. I feel like i just need somewhere to escape and doing nothing but reviewing what i have done this last few years.
I feel like i want to do something BIG but i don't know what it is. I want to learn something new, i want to learn another language. There are lots of things that i really want to do but i feel like it's just not enough.
Gw tau, gw seharusnya bersyukur karena banyak hal yang gw punya sekarang ga bisa semua orang punya. gw ga harus mikir besok mesti makan apa dan gimana, gw masih punya tempat tinggal, dsb dsb but it's just that i think the person i am now isn't the person i want to be.
How do you know what you want to do in your life as i still figure it out...
