Kosong

it's almost midnight...

i feel something deep down my heart...

kesepian...sendirian...saya ngerasa...

KOSONG

saya kangen..

kangen masa lalu saya...

kangen waktu saya ga ngerasa sendiri...

super duper graoooorrrr

lagi super duper graor sama kerjaan...lagi ngerasa stupido oono dan super duper gebleg... :nohope:

sepertinya making mistake di kerjaan gw...jadi gw benerin itu semua sekarang...

errr...gw emang suka ga berubah..kacao di manajemen data-nya...graoor abis2an deh gw.. :nangis:

btw, i'm having such a fun n great long weekend... :superbiggrin: 

spending times with orang yg menyenangkan n can make me feel better..special (errr) ahahaha

well, life is short..aight? so, i'm trying to having a great and good time before die... :p

tapiiii...again...selfish gw tuh lagi keluar lagi...hahaha..parah nih sifat gw yg satu ini..dan ini muncul musiman gitu...cuma keluar ke orang2 tertentu (baca : *siul2*)

gara2 sifat gw itu...jadi sempet ada kejadian ga enak..huff..dan tetiba gw jadi keinget sama lagunya nsync yg selfish :)

"you can call me selfish..

but all i want is ur love..

u can call me hopeless..baby..

coz i'm hopeless in love..

you can call me unperfect..

but who's perfect..

tell me what do i've gotta do..

to prove that i'm the only one for u..

what's wrong with being selfish..."

:) :) :)

dannn..turns out..it works! *what works? only God n me know :p*

tenga malem....

udah malem sangat dan gw masih belum bisa tidur..

jam di hp sih udah nunjukin 01.37 but i still can't close my eyes..i've tried..but it wont close.. :( 

gara2 ga bisa tidur ini gw jadi mikirin banyak hal..mulai dari hal yg menyebalkan dan super duper stressful..sampe hal2 yg menyenangkannn..

dannnn....dua hari ini bener2 menyenangkaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaannn...hehehehe.. :superduperbiggrin:

tapi gw pengen tidurrrrrrrrrrrr...besok mau pergi dari pagi *katanya yg ngajak pergi* tapi klo jam segini aja gw belom tidur..errr...gw ga yakin deh besok bisa bangun pagi.. *deepsigh*

padahal mata udah ngantuk..tapi otak ga bisa tidur... *emang otak kita tidur gitu? ahahaha..bener2 pernyataan yg aneh.. --"

dan terjebaklah gw sekarang mati gaya..padahal drtd udah browsing2 pake gadget anti mati gaya...tapi ternyata tetep aja tuh bikin gw mati gaya :nohope:

lagu gw di weekend ini adalaaahhh john legend yg p.d.a *ga ada maksud apa2 lho gw suka lagu ini..mwahahahahahahaha*

lirik ini :

"i wanna kiss u underneath the stars......" blush me out..bikin speechless...but hey..i really wanna try that..

how does it feel yak? herm... *tuing tuing*

bener2 faktor ga bisa tidur ini bikin postingan saya malem ini ga bermutu sama sekali..ahahahaha

*padahal kapan sih postingan gw bermutu* >:)

superduper gajebo

gosh...lagi ga menentu gw nih..mood swing paraaaaaaaaaaaaah!

sebentar2 seneng...ehh terus sedih...huff...what the hell is wrong with me??

well ...first of all hari ini gw bangun kesiangan doong *bangga* ahahaha...jadi tadi tuh bangunnya jam 8 lewat gitu..superduper ngantuk...gara2 tidur kemaleman juga sih...jam 2 kurang deh baru tidur... :D

daaaannn...to make it even worse...gw jadi ngantuk sepanjang hari ini *tepok tangan* udah gitu gw kan sepertinya butuh kopi..ehhh....mas2 kopinya ga ada aja gitu..tutup... :sedih:

i learn something today ~ ngantuk2 juga masih memaknai hidup lho gw..ahahaha *super duper gajebo*

jadi...apa yg gw pelajari hari ini adalah semua orang bisa bikin salah, tapi ga boleh selalu bikin salah..satu kali..dua kali..masih OK..tapi sampe tiga kali..that means u stupid! ahaha

ntar malem mo ke kota nih *berasa tinggal di desa benerrr..bilangnya klo mo pergi ya ke kota* ahahahaha...mau makan enak ahhhh... :">

that's all for my superduper gajebo post...ahahaha

*bener2 super duper ga penting*

pindah...

heihooo...
i've been thru lots lots of troubles in my life akhir2 ini..
but...it makes me stronger..it makes me being grateful for what i've become now.. :)

sekarang...gw udah ga di jakarta lagi...try to find something good in life or forget something that might be unforgettable dengan pindah ke batam..and it does work *percaya deh...it works* :p

i have some well lots actually new friends here..dannnn gw suka punya banyak temen! :)
sekarang gw lagi suka banget sama lagunya john mayer yg say...kemaren baru aja denger lagu itu..dan langsung aja gitu gw nyanyiin sama suara gw yg cuma bisa ngeluarin satu nada doang ini..hehehe

here are the lyric :

"take out of ur wasted honor
every little past frustation
take all ur so called problems
better put them in quotations

say what u need to say

walking like a one man army
fighting with the shadows in your head
living up the same old moment
knowing u'd be better off instead
if u could only

say what u need to say

have no fear for giving in
have no fear for giving over
u better know that in the end
it's better to say too much
than to never to say what u need to say again

even if ur hand are shaking
and ur faith is broken
even as the eyes are closing
do it with a heart wide open
a wide heart

say what u need to say"

from that song...bikin gw jadi ngerasa...that I SHOULD SAY WHAT I WANT AND NEED TO SAY...biar ga nyesel lagi...meski..kadang suka nyesel sama apa yg udah gw omongin..but..hey..at least..i'm doing something to change it..drpd diem aja dan nyesel akhirnya...hehe :)

that's all for today's folks..see u @ my planet soon... :D

this is it!

wohooooo....!!!!

it's my new blog! fasten ur seat belt and enjoy ur trip to my planet..

this is where i write all the foolishweirdoawkward day's in life..

well...enjoy!

life is a maze..love is a riddle... :)